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Learning how to make a fuss.....

  • Writer: Vix
    Vix
  • Sep 30, 2020
  • 3 min read


During these interesting times, putting aside my husband's cancer diagnosis and treatment, homeschooling, too many hospital visits to mention, all the mask wearing, temperature taking challenges, zoom call etiquette - I thought - why not add to my stress levels and look for a new job? I currently work part time but needed to increase our income.

It has occurred to me that for too long I've been hiding and not telling people I have a disability and I have actually not been doing myself any favours. I've struggled in the past because I've not told teachers/lecturers/managers that I need to lipread because it feels like I am drawing attention to myself and I am someone to likes to blend in with the background!! I remember one lecturer who faced the whiteboard for almost the whole hour and I hadn't heard a thing!! I've sometimes told myself that I don't need to say anything but will speak up if I need to further down the line and then somehow I've talked myself out of it as it's terrifying to speak out in a lecture hall with a hundred other students! It goes against every fibre of my being to stand out and say to everyone, look at me!! But I am different from hearing people, I am unique and there's no one like me 😂


My deafness is a part of who I am and even when doing something like filling in job application forms, I've dithered over whether to put down that I have a disability. Sometimes I've ticked the box and sometimes I haven't. I personally feel it's almost too extreme to put disability - I've wondered about whether it's possible to change the wording and just put deaf. I don't see myself as 'disabled' but I am deaf. I am perfectly able. Anyway, I ticked the disabled box in this instance and explained that I needed to lipread and see peoples faces.


I actually ended up applying for two jobs and ended up having 4 interviews in total. Two with zoom and two face to face. I 'made a fuss' and I explained how to make zoom accessible to me and therefore I felt comfortable chatting online and could see their faces clearly.

Both the face to face interviews were outside and in that environment I was able to have a conversation without masks. They were happy to repeat something if I missed it and were aware of the noise from the road stopping our conversation while the lorry drove past!


I have to stop worrying about what other people think and I have to get rid of that mindset that I'm making too much fuss. If I'm booked to go on a training course I have to make the trainer aware of my needs and to be honest, it still feels uncomfortable doing it. I always wonder what the other people on the course think and whether they think I'm just making a fuss. I still have to do quite a few zoom calls and will let people know from the beginning but again, I wish I didn't have to sometimes. I'm used to hiding in the background but by doing that I've let myself down. I need to tell people so I can make my life easier and it puts me more in control of the situation. I need to stand up for me.


By the way, I got the job and I can't wait to start!


 
 
 

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